Why? I don't (need to) know!

As I finished my job for a year now, time is getting there to make the final preparations for my trip to Asia. The more I think about it, the more I realise that I've got no real goals over there and that I can't exactly say why I'm going there. The reason why I'm taking this trip is because it feels right, because my heart tells me to. Follow my heart...the thing I used to forget for so many years, is easy once I found out what the heart wants. In many cases it's very difficult to really see what's my heart talking to me, and what's my mind talking to me. Many people talk about making a balance between what the heart wants and what the mind wants. Well, that just isn't good enough for me. My ideal self is making the heart and mind be in balance, not me making it in balance. And I think this is possible, just aim my energy on the right marks, focus on my true values. There's no way of forcing all of this, and therefor I won't even try to. My idea is that spending time in Nepal (at first) will bring back a lot of the inner peace I found there last year, it will bring colours back into my eyes, as well as tears and laughter. And if all of this doesn't happen, still it will be an experience of a lifetime. Enough has happened in the past, enough opportunities have been thrown away by myself, and realising that makes me believe that I want to do this. Doing this is my heart talking, as well as my mind, so I'm on the road to where I want to end. Inner peace!